How do I knw if I'm a top or a bottom?
I'm a transman in my 30s and very detached from myself because of past trauma and I've never had sex/ i thought I was asexual. I've done other stuff.im really attracted to thick buff bottoms but also men with incredibly dominant top energy but idk . I don't have a dick plus I'm detached from my emotions to the point where I can't figure out if I would like to penetrate someone, just using my imagination . But I am curious about it still. And due to past trauma I have thoughts of being penetrated idk it feels more like trauma related thank a normal scenario. i could be verse but I don't knw i just want to figure it out before I meet anyone so I don't have some kinda of panic about it. I do like the idea of giving pleasure to someone as opposed to me being touched intimately by someone in away that interacts with my chest or lower regions . How do I figure this out?