u/Unhappy_Job_5099

My GP prescribed me the patch and recommended lozenges OTC, and said I can alternate on different days. I wear the patch on days where I hadn’t slept well and definitely will mess up with the timing of taking the lozenges, but I can’t sleep on the patch.

Generally, I fall sleep pretty quickly most nights, but I go back to my night owl, unmedicated bipolar days when I have the patch on. It helps, ofc, and yet overrides how easily my antipsychotics and sleep meds put me asleep.

I hope it’s something that goes away and it’s been a week since I quit smoking, but my insomnia has made a return.

Since I quit a week ago and I lapsed one time, which I thank you guys for the encouragement, I notice that I’ve been feeling more depressed than usual. I have bipolar that I take meds for, for context, and before I quit smoking, were way more under control.

I’m not suicidal or anything like that, so I’m safe.

If any of you guys have experienced this, how long did it take for the depression to go away or at least lessen up? I’ve also been having a lot of brain fog, even more so than usual.

I don’t know what’s fucking wrong with me.

I smoked again, why did I let my guard down?

I want to thank all of you guys for giving awesome advice and I almost did cave in for a cig yesterday, and talking here helped a ton. My nose and throat have been hurting like hell and I think it might be smoker’s flu, from what I read. Idk if it’s my year-round allergies, or my body getting back to normal, but I’m gonna ask my GP about it.

I appreciate you guys.

Edit: I relapsed today 😞

Today has been brutal without a cigarettes or hitting my vape with the patch on. I’ve never tried to quit smoking before, nor have I used any nicotine replacements.

Jolly Ranchers have been my best friend today.

Literally bought a bulk of them because I’ve been going through them as crazy af. Everywhere I normally go is a trigger, given they have smoking areas.

Does anyone have any advice to not relapse?

My now-ex and I spilt amicably and our marriage is over, now on paper. I’m hollow and empty inside, and it’s my fault, albeit my ex-spouse doesn’t believe it’s because of my addiction.

I lied about my drinking, how much I drank, and I was addicted to benzos. I’m clean and sober now from both, but I was a POS and a dick at times.

How do I move on as a divorced man?

Edit 1: Thank you for the support, guys.