u/Unhappy_Marsupial744

Hey all,

I'm in my final year of Aeronautical Engineering (India), and I've decided I want to go the Systems Engineering route instead of pure design/CAD work. Problem is, I have basically zero relevant skills right now — no CATIA, no SolidWorks, nothing. Starting from scratch.

My plan so far (open to being told I'm wrong):

Learn CATIA V5 basics first (figured I need to actually understand subsystems before I can "integrate" anything)

INCOSE Fundamentals of Systems Engineering course

Basic SysML / MBSE concepts

CSWA cert somewhere in there for resume screening

Targeting ESOs like QuEST Global, Cyient, Tata Technologies — not trying to get into ISRO/DRDO right out of the gate, just want a solid desk-based engineering role to start.

I’m a college student and I’ve gotten really close to a female friend over the past few months. We mostly talk on Instagram, and she treats me as someone she can trust with personal stuff. She often shares her problems, talks about other guys, and even opened up about someone she used to be deeply in love with.

She has clearly said she won’t date anyone because of her family situation and plans to go through an arranged marriage. I respect that, and to be honest, I don’t even feel physical attraction toward her or see a future with her.

But here’s where I’m confused about myself:

When I open Instagram and don’t see a message from her, I feel anxious and low for no clear reason.

When she does reply and we end up chatting for a long time, I start feeling drained, irritated, and mentally tired.

So I’m stuck in this loop where I feel bad when she doesn’t text, but also don’t enjoy it much when she does.