I'm Scared to Make This Choice, But I Think I Have To Do It. Please, Help Me Figure OutIf I Should Or Should Not Get The Procedure For My Cat.
Do I get the procedure for my cat? Despite the risks to his heart? Or do I wait and hope for the best? I KNOW he needs it, but f*** I am so scared to make the choice...
My 8-year-old cat, Maurice Chevalier, was diagnosed with stage B2 heart disease earlier this year. He is not on medication right now as the vet does not believe he needs it yet. The issue is that he needs dental work done. But the procedure is going to be more risky because of his heart disease. I mean, any procedure where anesthesia is used carries risk, but his heart makes the risk to him greater. The vet is telling me it is better to get it done now, as his heart will only get worse over time, and eventually his teeth will deteriorate until there is no choice. I'm just scared to do it. I'm so scared to make the choice to put my boy under and risk his life. What if he dies on the operating table? Then my decision doomed him, right? He could have had another few years before his teeth got too bad... But I don't want him to suffer. I love my boy. I KNOW I NEED to get the procedure done for him. But I am SO scared to make the leap. I'm so terrified of MY decision being the REASON he dies so young... I've lost a cat young before to medical troubles. Nothing we did was helping him. And he deteriorated until I thought I had no choice but to euthanize him. He was having seizures everyday, peeing and pooping himself. He never wanted to get up. And everything we tried to do to help him didn't work. So, I chose what I thought was the most merciful thing I could do for him. I was only 18 at the time. And every day since then I have wondered if it was the right choice. If there was more I could have done to save him... I feel it is clouding mt jidgement here. My fear of making the wrong choice, and of losing my boy this young.
I don't know what to do. So, I am asking here for any potential advice, or even words of comfort that can be provided. The right thing to do is to go ahead with the procedure, despite the risk, right?
I mean, I KNOW i can't avoid it forever. Part of me is wondering why I am even writing this post. I just need to spill somewhere about this and talk about it. Because I am paralyzed by my own worries right now...