u/UnicorniosMagicos

I miss him every night, when im sad, when I feel lonely, when I feel like i cant do it anymore, I used to talk to him when i didnt knew what do, when I walked away from him I felt like a new person, but now I miss him, like the feeling is getting louder and louder, and he has a bf now, I dont rlly want to talk to my groomer, I felt sadder when I used to talk to him, I just miss him

Hello, to give a little context I was groomed at 13 by a 21-year-old guy, it was all online, I don't understand how it happened. But after that, I was groomed again but at 14, I feel horrible about myself.

Well, I'll talk about the last guy, he really made me feel horrible, like I was worthless, he made me cry too much, it was in 2024, he was 21, I was 14, I haven't spoken to any older man like that again, I feel disgusting, horrible, dirty, abused, used, I feel used above all else.

I'm using a translator because I can't even write properly, I remember it started because we met on a Discord server that I managed, we got to know each other. He bought me nitro, because it was what I wanted, I didn't want anything else, I gave him pictures of myself, as I had said I had already been groomed, I felt like used but I didn't care, now I cry. After that we talked for a long time: june2024 to oct we talked then separated, he talked to me in jan2025 again until like december or jan2026. The last time we talked was a month ago because he wanted to contact me again, but I blocked him.

He had a friend who, supposedly, they were just friends. He compared me to him, saying that he treated him better than I did. We were in a ""relationship"" but he would make those comments that made me feel insufficient, only to then want sexting, to call me his princess and shit, ask for pictures, say that my body is beautiful when I felt like throwing up when I saw myself in the mirror. I fucking hate him, I hate everything he made me do.

I sometimes feel like I miss him, but I don't, I know I don't, I cried my self to sleep with him. He really made me feel like I was the best girl in the world, to then just say that I was insufferable, to call me his little girl, to block me, make me search him. I hate myself, I don't know why I did that, I shouldn't have followed his games.

I feel like it was all my fault, I knew how old was him, I was 14, old enough to realize it was bad, it is bad, he is boyfriend with that guy he talked abourt before, and I don't know why he tried contacting me while being in a relationship with him.

He is now 23 and I'm now 16, why am I living this? I have problems relating to boys my age after that experience, being with that person online for 2 years messed completely my head, and my girl friends and girl classmates can have cute irl boyfriends. I feel sick, I feel sick I feel that not even my experience has a worth since it was all online, all something I feel like I could be controlling but choosed to attach to him.

And after that he is still with that boy he compared me to, they are probably together right now and irl. I was just a game for him, all he wanted was to play with me. He knew I grew up without a father and then made me call him daddy, I hate myself, I hate him, I hate him, I hope something bad happens to him. He makes me feel abused, he made me feel used. Like something he could just throw and grab again, I hate him.