u/Unique_Perspective21

TL;DR: Something that is a coincidence to one person, could be substantive to another. This is a brief story of how I've come to need less validation and choose to enjoy my life.

I can't stomach horror at all but a while back, I decided to see IT with my husband so he wouldn't go to the theater alone. That movie scared me so badly, I became afraid of the dark. I didn't let it affect my behavior. As a grown ass woman, I was embarrassed.

Anyway, last night I did my little magical practice and was feeling powerful. I navigated through my house without using any lights and when I got to the bathroom (no windows), I decided to shut the door entirely and simmer in the darkness for a bit before cutting on the light.

I realized that not only do I no longer fear the dark, I feel stronger in it. When I flipped the light switch, there was light for literally 1 second before the power went out. It was so immediate, as if it had tripped the breaker. The whole neighborhood went dark for 20-30 minutes.

The screen to our security systems flashed green to indicate that it was operating on its battery and didn't have power. I treated it as a strobe light, whipped out my phone and had a little dance party. Husband was frustrated with the power company while I was blisssd out dancing in the corner to Date with the Night by Yeah Yeah Yeahs.

The point I want to make is that, whether or not this was a spiritual thing — I choose to ascribe meaning to what happened. I choose to celebrate my growth and the chains that have been broken due to my own hard work. I practice witchcraft, yoga, meditation, listen to binaural beats and selfeggio frequencies, I spend as much time outside as possible and I'm healing myself.

What witchcraft gives to me is the ability to choose my own reality, and only accept what serves me. It has helped me fortify and protect my autonomy. Things don't just happen to me anymore. I am the author of my story an no longer feel like an npc.

I've traditionally purchased various candles, linen sprays, and oils from this company and they smell divine. My mom and husband used to hate when I burned candles but they both enjoy the scents I've bought from Art of the Root. I just noticed they have perfume oils and bought their Luv Luv Luv scent. The notes per the product page are:

jasmine, orange blossom, honeysuckle, rose, geranium, sandalwood, cedar, patchouli and vetiver.

I'm terribly excited but I wish there were more reviews available. Has anyone tried their perfume oils?

Edit: I forgot to mention that I've done an uncrossing spell.

I've been practicing witchcraft for maybe 6-8 months if I had to guess. I enjoy candlework and have made some successful honey jars (including one for self love 😚). I hexed my rapist and have no regrets. I also did an uncrossing. I feel less weighed down. One thing that absolutely has failed, time after time, is my money bowl. I put the most thought and effort into them. I typically use salt, rice, cinnamon, bay leaves, money from my mom's home country, four leaf clovers, quarters, rose petals, green candles, and abundance oil. I rarely call on deities (because of religious trauma. I know it's not the same but it's not my thing). I've also made several sigils to bring in some cash. I made my first money bowl the day I lost my job. Since then a few months have passed. I used up my savings and while I did get a job, I'm underemployed and I'm making $5 less per hour than before. I'm working retail and I'm not even on the schedule this week. I incorporate grounding before all spell work and often use meditation as well.

Is there a piece or facet that I'm missing? What would you recommend? TIA