i can’t tell the difference anymore
hi i’ve posted in here loads of times with my struggles of POCD but im now experiencing other things too such as cheating thoughts on my partner, sexual thoughts of other boys when i walk past them are these intrusive thoughts or am i just a cheater?
me and my partner was getting it on and as i was about to “finish” i pictured young boys and my daughter’s vagina as i was finishing and i felt so so fking sick to my stomach
my POCD thoughts were ok for a while but now they getting bad again, i have a baby monitor for our daughter and when she is making baby noises or anything like that my brain is telling g me she’s moaning???? when i get those thoughts my stomach drops and i get a weird tightness down in my vagina and my brain is telling me i’m getting turned on like fking disgusting and i’m on the verge of tears writing this because am i just a pedo who wants to believe it’s only POCD or do i have POCD im in therapy atm
but im just so scared because i keep telling myself im a dirty pedo and i just feel so so alone and scared constantly
tia🙏