r/intrusivethoughts

I will lean in firstly with the idea that we are Consciousness.
Yesterday i was walking on the road when i spotted a middle age woman wearing baggy short trousers and a 'that rocks' shirt, a 'style' that i would more often see in younger individual than an older one (debatable, i know).
My question is this. If we are indeed consciousness, then we dont 'age' like we with we do, we are just experiencing life in a way.
Like we have borrowed a body that grows in its own rhythm and then starts to decline in its own rhythm. We, the soul inside it, do not age but rather experience life. Some could argue that this is the same, but when you will see this lady and you first thought might be that she is a 40Y old Woman ( so you might unconsciously guess some things about her, based on her age), you would be partially wrong, for she is a soul that has spend 40 year on this earth. The kid Her, the Teenage Her and the adult Her (in our sense) are there simultaneously , and i just find it interesting to observe people like that for then you acknowledge that they are All of their selfs in this body and not just a 40y old person, with a 40y old person life and problems.
Thougths?

People want the fruit of love, but they don't want the responsibility of watering the roots.

Maybe love isn't difficult to find maybe it's difficult to maintain, if everyone wants love, why do we keep losing it?

I’m a kid so I don’t really wanna do therapy as I think my mom will think I’m disgusting and weird for these thoughts I don’t know if this classes as an intrusive thought but I wanna share

So I was just sitting with my younger brother he was telling me him and Bella our sister are getting Pokémon from mom this was supposed to be wholesome but now I’m thinking that my mom won’t order that for them and my younger brother will be sad my mom did this a lot when I was growing up so i just wanted to share on here

cw for sexual discussions, I’ll keep it vague

hi, Ive been struggling with a very specific intrusive thought related potentially to both SOCD and POCD and I was wondering if anyone else deals with it? I just want to feel less alone I think. I don’t need reassurance on this topic, I’m luckily very certain at this point that I am not attracted to children, family members, etc—and that thoughts are only thoughts.

however, a big one I’ve been struggling with lately during intimate time both solo and with a partner is the presence of family photos in my bedroom—especially those of children I’m close with—I don’t know why, but whenever I am engaged in either activity, I have this BURNING urge/compulsion to look at the pictures. It’s to the point I’ve begun avoiding intimacy (I’m trying to stop this because I know it would be encouraging it!)

I believe the fear itself comes not from the idea of being attracted to the content of the photos themselves, but for any unintentional physical response I may have when looking at them/the idea of using the photo for gratification. I know mechanically the body can become aroused by anything the brain finds shocking, but it still feels gross to me and i was wondering if anyone struggles with anything similar? I oddly don’t find this same issue with photo albums in my phone, possibly due to the ‘out of sight out of mind’ factor, but I have also at times struggled with intrusive thoughts or urges to look at those images during intimate times as well.

I’ve recently started having intrusive thoughts about how disgusting I am, that I’m a whore, that something is wrong with me, etc. for getting horny/masturbating/having sex. Even though I know deep down it’s normal the thoughts won’t end they are constant if I’m doing anything sexual. It’s made it so difficult because my partner doesn’t understand and thinks it’s because of him but it’s just my stupid brain. I don’t know what to do. Is this something that is too disgusting to tell my therapist about?? Please help.

Hi I’m 18F and I have really horrible gross vile intrusive thoughts and I was masturbating today and I had an intrusive thought about something disgusting, and decided to start masturbating to it to see if I was attracted to it, I’ve done it, and I’m definitely not attracted to it, it just made me feel disgusted and upset, yet I heard people on this app say that if you masturbate to your intrusive thoughts it means you have a paraphilia. I’m really really scared, it’s just a compulsion I think , but please help me. I don’t feel attracted to these things but what if I secretly am??

>!&#x200B;!<So, I, unfortunately, walked in on my sister masturbating in the living room, and now I’m having a mix of contaminate intrusive thoughts, and sexual intrusive thoughts. I’m having a physical response to the sexual ones that are really not fun, and fighting my own brain to tell myself I’m not attracted to my sister is not what I wanted to do while going to bed before what was going to be a really nice day tomorrow. I’m in bits, this is the worst, I want to cry, I want to throw up, I want to be normal enough that something like that can happen and I don’t have to convince myself I’m not sexually interested in my SISTER because I’m so disgusted my mind started to tell me I am.

I wish I was normal. I wish I was reasonable. I wish intrusive thoughts worked any other way. I wish it wasn’t just over four hours until I need to wake up.

so yeah, just needed to rant it out, and maybe ask for any advice on how to get over it??>!&#x200B;!<

Im a bisexual girl. I wish i could feel what it’s like to have sex with a girl, i bet it feels good. I would treat her so right too with the foreplay so its wet before putting it in 😭😭😭😭

I’m F18 and I’ve been having these thoughts for maybe almost 2 years now??? It literally came out of nowhere but when I hear about pedophiles and people harming kids, it disgusts me to the point where I feel like crying, but then I’ll start worrying if I’m a pedo and that fills me with so much fucking disgust and worry. When I masturbate, I’ll have intrusive thoughts like this even though it’s completely unrelated to what I’m jerking off to and I’ll stop what I’m doing and try to push it out of my head. It worries me so much that I have these thoughts when masturbating sometimes, but I have these thoughts all of the time too, whenever I see a kid or anything and they’re completely unwanted thoughts. The groinal response has been present as well, but I’ve never got off on anything like kids. Just typing this makes me wanna cry and I’ve been having a really hard time with it. I force myself to have these images in my head so I know that I’m not into it, but I hate seeing them. I know I would never harm a kid, and I fucking hate people who do and think they deserve nothing but the worst, and yet I’m so fucking scared that I’m a pedo even though I’m not. I should add that nothing happened to me as a child (as far as I’m aware) but I’ve had a very high sex drive ever since I can remember and struggle with hypersexuality as well. I was also exposed to shows like law and order SVU when I was like 12+ and watched it repeatedly but idk if that has anything to do with it lol

Hate all you want on me but in my head I could 100% be an actress that shit looks so fucking easy besides having to memorize the whole script and stuff BUT THATS BESIDES THE POINT

All you got to do is fake emotions and that’s it. Yeah I heard the stories of actors incorporating the characters so much they almost went crazy but I think that’s just marketing strategy honestly… ofc there must be crazy actors out there that do that (I can easily imagine Jim Carey being one of them) but the majority nah

Cast me RN for a movie and I’ll kill that shit

(M15) I honestly am not sure if I am even gonna make it to adulthood, every week, I am feeling like I am in an endless void, I honestly do not want to tell my family, they are gonna send me to some mental facility if they find out I am sad, I do not want to be locked in a padded white room for the rest of myself with no-one to talk to, I actually would rather commit suicide then that! I previously started cutting myself at like 12-13 and I have not been doing well, my life is a wreck, I used to be a great student but my grades suck and I feel abnormal, I am not diagnosed with anything cause the last time I tried to get therapy, it was delayed for so long we forgot about it and I am scared to ask, I wanna slice my arms so much, I wanna cut my hands and my neck, I just want to die!

I already scheduled an appointment for my Dr really thinking of upping my meds. Im on zoloft 25mgs,

Been on it for 6 months.. its helped some but i still have scary thoughts.

Mostly suixcxdal thoughts but im not. I love my life and i feel im breaking into the best part yet im plauged with thoughts like ," no sense in buying xy,z if youre not gonna be here" or " what if i need to do this"

I assure you i dont. These thoughts scare me.

Im afraid going up on zoloft will make it worse.....

Please help :(((

I have kids and im worried. I dont want to do anything crazy.

I have sexual intrusive thoughts and they are very distressing to me. I know I can't stop my brain from thinking, but God, please let me thinki about something else for once please.

So i do have diagnosed OCD, but i put this here since these intrusive thoughts dont have compulsions attached to them and therefore arent caused by my ocd, atleast not yet. Idk.

Recently its been getting more frequent but i have been having recurring intrusive thoughts about purposefully hurting my dog. I have been in the middle of holding her and had an intrusive thought.. borderline urge.. to bend her paw backwards until it snaps. I have had that one multiple times. Pretty sure i have had intrusive thoughts about forcing her jaw open until it dislocates. And i just had an intrusive thought about gouging her eye out and i almost cried because of it. I love my dog dearly, she is my child and i legit have maternal instincts regarding her.. but these thoughts are so distressing and i dont know how to make it stop, i almost wish it was an ocd thing so that way there would be some compulsion i could perform to make the thought go away. Instead im forced to have it in my mind until it goes away on its own. I dont want to hurt my dog, but i have found myself putting the slightest pressure on her paws as if i was gonna snap it, and that makes me feel sick. Is there anything i can do to try and help these intrusive thoughts go away? I dont think i would ever end up actually hurting her, but i have thought the same about other things and i ended up doing them.

Please help this is really emotionally distressing 😥

this is gonna be a lot but im gonna try and sum it up

i (19F) have been diagnosed with ocd since childhood. I have also experienced cocsa.

in my teen years I had a character I would project horrible scenarios onto involving my traumas, such as sexual assault trauma. it got to a point when I was 18 however where I realized it was getting excessive and I was also worried it would unintentionally further condition me to associate sex with violence and abuse, something I already struggled with. in any case, I dropped this bad coping skill. only after dropping it did I begin to obsessively worry over potentially becoming or being perceived as a pedophile. for months I felt sick and anxious all the time, constantly doubting myself. after getting medicated, these thoughts died down and ultimately went away for quite some time—a long enough stretch that I can confidently say the thoughts were ocd. I eventually stopped the medication I was on due to some issues I had with it. for a while I was fine, but after reaching 19, the thoughts came back, MUCH worse this time.

initially, I just felt guilty over my past coping skill and kept seeking reassurance that using dark fiction to cope didn’t make me a monster. however, it eventually evolved into constant sexual compulsions where I forced myself to masturbate while I was being mentally assaulted by intrusive thoughts to test if I was really attracted to them. sometimes I’d try and do exposure therapy with cute videos on my phone, but usually wind up getting uncomfortable and having to turn the video off—and then masturbating to stop whatever groinal response I was having.

however, I’ve been feeling more and more confused lately. sometimes the thoughts are feeling more like fantasies, never of me acting out on my thoughts necessarily but just any sexual thought involving a child. sometimes a thought will feel REALLY arousing, to the point I can masturbate while thinking about it, even though the whole time im still also upset and anxious and wish it would go away. I hate seeing kids because i know there’s a chance I’ll think about them in a horrific way later and the idea of potentially enjoying it even if i also hate it makes me want to vomit.

I am in therapy and returning to medication and praying that the thoughts stop, but I’m so afraid that they wont. I’m so afraid that I had some sexual perversion about children all my life and that it’s finally surfacing. I can’t stop confessing and explaining my every thought and fantasy to my friends because I don’t want to feel like im keeping a sick attraction secret from them.

please, if this is really not ocd, just tell me. please. I can’t take it anymore.

What is the purpose of life when we are anyhow going to die

Why suffer in life mentally, physically when you are going to die anyhow

Can anybody tell why do most of the people fear death

Do they think they are immortal

Why did god create life & sufferings

Having intrusive thoughts about an younger male cousin m18 I F20 +. What too do I feel dirty.