Fuck I can’t explain how much I love cigarettes and eating fish they might be the best fucking invention on human history easily top 5 best feelings:
-taking a fat shit
-smoking a cig after a long time of not smoking
-eating fish/ any seafood
-sleep
-having hair played with
Hate all you want on me but in my head I could 100% be an actress that shit looks so fucking easy besides having to memorize the whole script and stuff BUT THATS BESIDES THE POINT
All you got to do is fake emotions and that’s it. Yeah I heard the stories of actors incorporating the characters so much they almost went crazy but I think that’s just marketing strategy honestly… ofc there must be crazy actors out there that do that (I can easily imagine Jim Carey being one of them) but the majority nah
Cast me RN for a movie and I’ll kill that shit
Whenever I see a girl just sobbing her eyes out and her partner holding her and comforting her it makes me genuinely cry with pure jealously loll
I sometimes I even get jealous of pets being pet why can’t someone pet me too? I know this sounds so so crazy I am a little crazy in the head but that’s just how I think. Genuinely.
In the end I just want someone to actually understand me but romantically
So I noticed a lot of people think I’m a bitch before talking to me 😭
I’m the classical closed European stereotype: really mean looking but after you get to know them, they soften completely up.
Idk why I’m like that honestly since I consider myself as someone very giggly and smily (if I can call it that?) I literally feel like a child (humor) most all of the time.
I am serious when I need to be but after people get to know me they stop taking me seriously??????? I really don’t understand that.
Back then I used to have really black hair bangs and thin black eyebrows, I also only used mostly black and I changed that whole look because people thought I looked too mean and intimidating. Now I have copper hair no bangs and thin blond eyebrows and generally a really girly soft style (which I love I feel like a princess 😼).
I’m really needy and need attention almost all the time too
I really do think I’m going to die alone and childless even though I would like to have a husband and a kid because I genuinely don’t understand men at all.
Like…genuinely I don’t understand men. “Women are hard to understand” that’s how I genuinely feel towards men, they’re so closed, childish and immature no matter what age and I never feel at ease with them even though it would be: us vs the world. But for me it’s actually: me vs men and the whole world.
They also don’t let me be a woman…why do I have to plan everything? Why do I have to be the dominant one? I already do everything alone why do I have to guide a relationship?????? Why can’t I never just relax and enjoy something? I’m always fighting for love and to be understood.
Also the fact that men always want to fuck before and during a relationship and leave the moment you refuse to do so (meh women also do that). Some people are still waiting for marriage ok?!? Is it really love if you can’t keep your dick in your pants? Well at least it’s better than pretending to be okay with it and then forcing me to do so. I’m waiting for marriage PLUS I’m high key scared of intimacy too so I just know I’m never finding a partner, yay!
This actually makes me want to tear up because I genuinely want to be married and have a kid someday…not happening probably. If I don’t ever marry have my dream job or a kid I’m genuinely turning into a nun, they seem to have such a peaceful life. It must be nice