I wanna die so much but for some reason I cannot!
(M15) I honestly am not sure if I am even gonna make it to adulthood, every week, I am feeling like I am in an endless void, I honestly do not want to tell my family, they are gonna send me to some mental facility if they find out I am sad, I do not want to be locked in a padded white room for the rest of myself with no-one to talk to, I actually would rather commit suicide then that! I previously started cutting myself at like 12-13 and I have not been doing well, my life is a wreck, I used to be a great student but my grades suck and I feel abnormal, I am not diagnosed with anything cause the last time I tried to get therapy, it was delayed for so long we forgot about it and I am scared to ask, I wanna slice my arms so much, I wanna cut my hands and my neck, I just want to die!