Just feeling very low. Have no k e to really be honest wirh. Im tired of struggling im tired of it being so hard. I really am. I have strong. Faith but today it's wavering. I wonder if he hears me . I wonder if ppl who killed themselves dont go to heaven. Im sorry if I seem dramatic.
Just seeing the empty streets and the ppl driving with smiles. I sit here outside and feel not self.pity more just empty. Im 19 not on drugs or anything dad was just a drunk and ya ended badly. Here I am. I want a family. I feel really sad. Im resting as I plan on hitchikng etc to get to where I need. But Im grateful im here. Im grateful I had somewhere to rest last night. It can always be worse. Not easy to believe it but it's true. It could.be winter instead of fall . Im grateful I get a chance to live.