What was I supposed to do?
Okay, hi everyone. Basically I (24F) have known “Bacon” (25M) for almost 2 years? I’m not sure. Regardless we first met on instagram and it started off very casually minorly flirting okay. Nothing too serious, I also had never met him or anything at this point. Well then, one of my bestfriends introduced us to her bf (we can call him eggs) Well turns out Bacon and Eggs are bestfriends since childhood ,so we all end up hanging out for our get togethers and what not. Well him and I actually start getting pretty close but tbh with y’all… he’s … too good? Like we’re exactly alike and he understands me completely and tbh with you guys , I just knew there had to be a catch.
Early on I was always throwing those hints about us being friends. Like one time he said he didn’t have friends or something and my response was “well what am I ? A roach?” And he said “well we are not friends” and at the time I didn’t say anything because I didn’t catch on to it. Anyways also on his birthday in January he asked me if there was ever a chance of us doing anything and I said yeah, but not now. And he said “real” and then that was it bc in my head I was like I’m not going to be your birthday sex? Then on my birthday we hung out and before he stepped out of my car he said “don’t talk to any guys” while I went out that night , and I laughed it off because I saw the moment it hit him that he said that and we went our separate ways. A little after this we were on the phone and I told him that he was special to me and that I really want to preserve our friendship, and he agreed. So I was like great, this is fantastic.
Until he started talking about his literal evil ex and tbh with yall.. I literally hate that for him. Basically she did him very dirty and literally embarrassed him in front of his friends. It has been a year or two since the last time they connected and since then he’s lost a lot of weight and he just overall looks a lot better. Why does he tell me that she is planning a trip to go visit him in Colorado during the summer 🙂. And that he’s only accepting it so that he could put her on the spot and reject her 🙂. Do I look… stupid? And I kept telling him the reason she’s still winning is because you’re still falling for this crap. Mind you this is coming from the same guy who HATES my last ex. Whatever. Well he’s a grown man and he’s going to do what he wants right. Well then, I realized I do like him. YUP. Can you believe that. The thing is I actually am smart enough to realize this isn’t going to work right now because .. well.. literally look at the situation.
So im open and honest and I tell him that its slowly starting to bother me when he talks about women because im noticing I have feelings and that I wanted to take a step back. He responded with something along the lines of he’s sorry because he has no one to talk to but that he respects my decision and told me to be safe. I didn’t want to friendship to end. I just needed to figure myself out. We then don’t talk for two weeks and he sends me “Eenie meenie” by Sean Kingston along with the lyrics “you seem like the type to love them and leave them.” I don’t respond and 30 mins later he texts me again saying that he hopes I’m doing good and that it’s only a couple weeks until he moves to Colorado so I was like idk what to say, you went kinda silent on me, are we okay and do you want to talk about it. No response . No respond for nearly 3 weeks. In those 3 weeks I came to the conclusion that well… no response is a response and that if he cared about he integrity of our friendship then he would’ve communicated by now.
So boom. Yesterday I get a text from an unknown number saying I was very special to him especially because of how alike we were and that he was sorry for making me feel any way. He also asked me if I wanted to get coffee with him to talk , and that he’s heard some things with an eyebrow raise. I didn’t want to answer but I sent him dates that I would be available … then after no response again I said never fucking mind… now I don’t cuss at him tbh. So he responded with telling me what he was doing and that he will tell me when and that he’s sorry and to pls not be mad at him. I just said okay.. idk why I got mad .. I just did. So then he sends me this message
“actually I can’t I’m prepping to move this week and I got sm shit going on, but I wanted to clear up that I do care about you, but it’s always been platonic way, even if I had some grey area moments. & the fact that I was never mad at u or feeling a way about anything. My character towards other people is important to me. you won’t see me again for a while but I’m always here for u.”
I just said okay.
But … idk it wasn’t okay.
So later on I said
“I think it’s best if we just pretend we never knew each other “ followed up by
“I’m glad you were able to relieve your consciousness.”
He thumbs upped the first one immediately after I sent it.
I just feel like I was already healing from this and you came back and just rubbed salt on the wound and it doesn’t even feel like you’re here for me. It feels like you’re here to make yourself feel better. The other things is, if you knew how I felt about you , what makes you think that contacting me is the right thing to do?
What do you guys think? And how would you guys handle the next time you see him? Because I know it’s not the last time I’ll see him .