u/Upper_Swimming3296

So I'm 18(M) and about to be 19 next month. I just feel very lost and have no idea what to do next. I just finished my 12th (got 59% state board) and didn't give any entrance exam cause.... I was scared¿ But now I am aimless and feel very lost. Thought of running away and ending it all but couldn't do it. Can anyone help? Thx in advance