u/Upset-Lime-906

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They (I'm not saying who because I don't want to be exposing who)—so they make me and my sibling drink water with quran verses or something they write on a board but it's in arabic and they pour it into the water. They hand us bracelets saying it will protect us. The one they handed me has a blue eye on the bracelet, and I don't wear it, nor do I believe that it is protecting me. Even when they told me just a few minutes ago that they learned the Quran in Egypt or Yemen and said it isn't shirk... BS, it's pissing me off.

Especially due to the fact that they abused my sibling and me growing up, and now my sibling is in a psych ward, coming to visit home two times a week. Instead of taking accountability that they caused this—and also caused me to have suicidal thoughts—they blame Shaytan. They placed garlic under my sibling's bed, or pieces of paper with I don't know what, and a bracelet around their stomach and also the neck. They make them shower with garlic water, and me with them shower with garlic water, and me with lemon water And also what's on the picture as well.

The paper on the top of the door, they told me it's Quran. I think they have written Quran on the paper and placed it there. Anyways, to me, it's all maybe Allah giving them some type of punishment, making them go crazy like that all because of what they did to me and my sibling growing up. And if it is, Alhamdulillah for that. I know Allah would bring justice for me, which feels to me like it's now making them go nuts over someone giving us the evil eye. Maybe it's true, but I can't help but think maybe it's both Allah's way of teaching them, and maybe also a little bit of the evil eye from other people, and them just backbiting and more and the fact i still chose to return to Allah even tho to me as a kid i rejected islam because of their action thinking that that's islam..Alhumdulilah i came back to islam and also another question to i have to remake my prayers for those years? Even tho i didnt like praying nor wanted because i was being forced and abused into it..amd im struggling to have the motivation to learn and i feel bad it im still a year in not knowing the full 5 prayers tho it has been a rough year of abuse and sucidal thoughts and close attempts..?

Anyways, I'm trying to get help for myself next week with a social worker because of these thoughts... and I'm getting tired. I'm 19 and my sibling is 13, if that matters lol.

Now I'm asking from you is to pray for me and my sibling to heal from this, and InshaAllah I'll be strong enough to take care of her and myself because I mentally can't even work at a job without everyday thinking of ending it which a few times i planned to. Now I'm unemployed but staying active, etc. But... I won't explain more, but just pray. JazakAllahkhairan

I'm not as "obsessed" as I was back then; I'd say I was and still am somewhat of a normal K-pop stan. I don't dive too deep into their personal lives, but I did use to and still do here and there listen to K-pop news or updates just for the fun of it, to be honest.

In the past, I was more into their shows because I got to see their friendships, and they’re really fun to watch. When watching their shows, I felt happy for them because i was friendless, lonley teen(15/16)and rooted for such friendships. I would get emotional, and I didn't play around whenever someone started to hate on them, I got defensive. I hated when people said it was just a 'phase,' and when people hated on them, I felt like they were just jealous because they didn't look as good as the members.

To K-pop fans, I’m not that deep into K-pop because I have zero albums and no photocards anymore, nor do I post about the idols. However, to non-K-pop fans, it might still seem like I am Also, I’ve always had a problem with the word 'K-pop idols' because of Allah. Some of the songs also had weird lyrics, so I was like, 'Ehh, I don't know about this one,' because it feels wrong and demonic.

I used to like BTS a lot and posted edits of them on my IG constantly. I only bought photocards of them and Enhypen before throwing them out two years later. Anyways, I just watched a video of a Christian creator talking about how to quit, and it got me thinking about it again. Even a year or two ago, I was watching a few videos from Christians and Muslims about how it might be a sin. I won't lie some of us are hardcore fans, and when it comes to also being Muslim, it feels wrong. I’ve already heard about how it’s affecting Muslim girls in Malaysia and Indonesia who are K-pop fans as well.

im seeing the same path from my little sister because she also likes kpop for awhile. Like 3 or 4 years and shes 13 Also wont lie i was into shipping the same genders in the group n watch bunch of shipping edits and actually think they are real and root for them and still kinda am🙂‍↕️

The vid i watched