Lately I’ve been realizing how much of my college years were spent trying to be the perfect Mormon
Anyone else ever think about the college experiences they’ll never really get to have?
Lately I’ve been realizing how much of my college years were spent trying to be the perfect Mormon instead of actually figuring out who I was. I followed all the rules because I thought that was what I was supposed to do, but now forever stuck in this weird feeling that I missed out on a huge part of being young.
I wish I would’ve dated people I actually connected with instead of constantly filtering everything through “eternal marriage potential.” I wish I would’ve made friends outside the Mormon bubble.
Sometimes I even regret how careful I was all the time. I spent so much energy trying not to disappoint people that I never really asked myself what I wanted.
Now I feel older, more uncertain, and honestly kind of sad that I can’t get those years back. I know everyone says “college is what you make of it,” but sometimes feels like an experience designed around avoiding mistakes instead of discovering yourself.
Curious if anyone else feels this way or if I’m just romanticizing the life I didn’t live.