I miss my breast so much that it's taking a toll on my mental health
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Hi everyone! First time posting here. I'm a woman who started detransitioning four years ago. During that time, I went off testosterone, and last summer I got pregnant. I had my first child in March of this year.
My body changed a lot during the pregnancy, as expected. I gained weight, which also brought back a little breast tissue. I had a failed mastectomy about eight years ago, which left me with an infection and significant scarring. Now I'm left with uneven, very small breasts that look quite strange.
I really miss my breasts and feel quite dysphoric about not having them anymore. I think about it every day, and it makes me really sad.
I've been looking into plastic surgery, but the only option I've been able to find much information about is silicone implants. I like working out at the gym, and I've heard that some people aren't able to exercise the same way after getting implants. I've also heard that they may need to be replaced after a number of years, and I really don't like that idea.
That's why I've also been researching fat transfer, where fat is taken from another part of the body and transferred to the breasts. However, it's been really difficult to find information about people's results or before-and-after photos.
Has anyone here had this kind of procedure? Were you happy with the results? I'd really appreciate hearing about your experiences.
Also, if anyone has any advice on how I can learn to accept and live with my body as it is, I'd really appreciate it. This has had a significant impact on my mental health and body image, and I'm finding it difficult to come to terms with.