Dildo Sucking?
I'm a man in my early 30s and have always considered myself straight despite some experimentation a couple times in college and a little after. Most of that was letting them suck me or kiss my body and I was drunk or high and found those guys somewhat attractive but I couldn't stay hard so eventually it ended awkwardly.
Recently though I've not had a female partner for months and months so I guess I'm pent up and was exploring porn about once a day. I was branching out and exploring when I found and got into some about body swapping to a woman porn. Something I think more men in this community than most publicly would be into imagining than the general population. It was hot to me but I have no real desire to actually be a woman outside of sexual fantasy so I'm definitely not trans. That said it got me to start wondering about sucking guys off in general. That was when I realized I like looking at big cocks in general. TBH I like it so much I went a step further and bought a suction dildo recently to try giving it head and long story short I've gotten off while doing it.
I keep wondering if I'm bi but I look up pictures or porn of men together and it just feels weird and I'm not turned on. Maybe it is like another comment said on a similar post from a month ago and internalized homophobia but I don't really think so. Like I said I've tried stuff before with guys and was turned off by everything from the smell, feel, and up close look of them. I also go to the gym regularly where people's bodies are on display and while I appreciate a strong looking dude there as attractive objectively my eyes don't instinctively follow them like they do women. Like to the point you have to stop yourself from looking because it is creepy and rude obviously. I never ever found myself doing that with any men nor can I even imagine kissing or dating them.
So idk if I'm really questioning so much as possibly admitting I have a slightly weird oral fixation but who knows I also read on that post that sexuality evolves a lot as we age which I didn't realize even though I've always known it was a spectrum. I suppose it makes sense though kind of like taste.