Alterous attraction is the worst
and simultaneously the best feeling I’ve ever had. I’ve had squishes before and they’re intense but this is something else, it feels too much for platonic attraction but not quite romantic either it’s indescribable.
I want to talk to her all the time everyday and can’t stop thinking about her, it’s kind of obsessive. I’m not even sure I’d want to be in a relationship with her because I like our friendship dynamic but I would if she asked me, I just want her to be happy
I feel like she’s the only person who’s ever known me, I don’t really tell people I’m close to stuff about me I’m just not an open person but I feel like I could tell her anything, I’d do anything for her
I would tell her but it’s so embarrassing and I sound insane, I just don’t want to be too much I guess
I say all of this and I’m still romantic repulsed it’s weird
I wanted to post here because if I told my other friends they would think it’s romantic attraction because they’re alloromantic atleast to my knowledge