I think ill lose myself because of my bfs rocd
My bf (24M ) and I (23F) have been together for over a year now and recently I discovered his condition, at first i didnt think it was this serious and I told him its gonna get better but it got worse and what makes it even worse is that we are long distance so im not with him to comfort him when he needs me even though im always up for a call or text but that js doesnt mount to being physically there for the person and so we decided to see eachother after a month of me knowing this thing, it backfired awfully he met me and burst out crying telling me it doesnt let him look at me without feeding a hundred thoughts abt me. Initially i decided gonna leave him alone for his sake because hes struggling to be himself with me but I cant. He initiated the decision and i accepted then I tried being away from him for a day and I genuinely thought the world came crashing down upon me, Our rls was so great it was the best thing that ever happened to me and i only ever felt safe with him. He was the best thing that could ever happen to a person and I was the lucky one. I tried for one day and I couldnt, I thought id die so i went running back to him ik its selfish of me to think that he should continue when clearly he doesnt want to but i dont know any better i dont know how to live life without him, hes everywhere hes in everything i look at I genuinely js cant move on from him. So i went back and he was worried for me because things ended so abruptly that we didnt have time to let the emotions flow. I asked him if he can me back and I can tell its really painful for him but he couldnt see me in pain so we decided to fight it together. But idk how to, idk how to fix it, fix him and fix our relationship, I genuinely am so scared that I feel like my life would end if I lost him i js cant lose him PLS CONSIDER THIS A CRY OF HELP AND GIVE ME ADVICES PLS