Fellow chelis please helpp I am stuckkkkkkkk.
A little backstory, I am in a relationship since past 2.5 yrs. And it's not the best one yet we've managed to understand e/o and try to give our best in terms of time, care, attention and love. But we're both very career centric and he is very much focused in career than I am.
And there have been many things due to which I feel like I don't seem to be able to open up to him like I used to and when I try to he isn't available lately. This has got me to overthink like helllll. I don't even know now if he is in it for the timebeing or he has thoughts of maariage yestai sochda sochda now I am in a different lane of my mind. And he doesn't even know that these thing are going in my head neither does he have that much time rn for me to express it all to him.
So now what I am feeling is why are we actually in a relationship like this? Like am I in love or just too afraid to lose him or maybe I am afraid that I will fear love in future if we dont end up together, or maybe I think I won't ever feel for someonelike I do for him so I can't leave him or still is it love what is this I am in such a mess of thoughts.