u/VirtualCheetah4812

I'm on week one of .8 mg, and honestly I'm surprised.

36, f 5' 3"SW of 220 ish

Also my big side effect has been constipation so... We'll see what the numbers look like when that resolves (look at me talking about poop on the internet lol).

The thing is I have lost weight a lot of times in my life. I have lost 40 lb 2 years ago, lost 50 lb. 3 years ago, but it always comes back. Because the food noise is so loud that if I am not obsessively tracking the calories that I'm consuming then I fall off the wagon.

It seems like my whole like my choices were Have food noise that is constant about "how much" I'm allowed to eat, or food noise that is constant about what I want to eat.

In my first two days I noticed the change in appetite, food is very clearly emptying, slow and taking longer to digest. I am staying full a lot longer, I also have something else that was very odd for me. Now I'm somebody who has autism and ADHD, so that interoception has always been very hard for me. For the first time in my life. I feel when I'm full. I feel when I've had enough food. I'm able to stop eating mid-meal because I've had enough.

And almost feels unfair that my whole life or at least my whole adult life. I've been under the impression that I'm fat because I have no motivation, I have no willpower, I just don't care enough. And that just wasn't the case. I really really hope that going up in dosage, and continuing on the journey. I retain the ability to not constantly be thinking about food, I haven't had a snack in the last 7 days. Not a single snack... Which is wild for me.

That's just me rambling about this. It just kind of puts a stick in that narrative that it's easy, it's calories and calories out, and I just didn't want it enough.

First of all, I have to say that I know this is a communication tactic, I know the child is trying to tell me they are upset or frustrated or whatever. I'm not mad at the child, I'm simply upset because this has been going on all year. This all happened today. Every time I redirected the child to stop doing something unsafe, they grabbed the closest skin and pinched. I tried to dodge out of the way a couple of times, and it just was worse.

I cannot turn my back or this child pulls my hair, they even bit me in the back today, sometimes because there's just not something available. Last week we played with balloons, this week. I have no more balloons... And I got bit

I document everything. It's all in a word file, but my district doesn't have a formal documentation system.

I'm at a point where... yeah, we've got 15 days of school left so I'm not going to be able to change anything this year. But there needs to be a process.

I can't face the child, I can't turn away from the child, I can't step away from the child. The function of the behavior is escape from a demand, or access to a tangible item. I know what the function is, but the problem is that I cannot never put a demand on this child. Because some of the demands are, you have to go to the bathroom, you have to wear shoes, you cannot stand on top of a counter, like safety issue things.

And I cannot just give this child whatever they want whenever they want it. Because sometimes the items are not available.

I don't want anything from this post except like to know that I'm not alone with a district not having appropriate documentation processes.

I do love my job, and I'm not angry at this child again. It's the system that I'm upset with. This child is not getting what they for my classroom, and the other children in the classroom are scared... And it's just a frustrating place to be in.

(If you downvote this, in interested to know why... Is it because I'm not mad at the kid?, because I shouldn't be talking about this?, because you're upset at the district ?like what is the problem?)