Wife got an abortion after I told asked her about polygamy
We’ve been together for nearly8 years and I love my wife dearly. Granted, we did not come into marriage polgynous in nature. But as a Christian, I didn’t know that polygamy was originally apart of the culture before that structure was kind of done away with in the west.
When I read the Bible one night, I landed in exodus in Deuteronomy and cant remember how I ended up there. Anyway, this was exciting to me! And something I really felt like could change the way people look at relationships - for the better! Moving on though — even thought it was risky I decided to bring it up to my wife because I trust her. She was surprisingly receptive at first but then talked to some friends and they convinced her that I was trying to cheat openly which made no logical sense at all.
Why would I bring it up just to cheat? Anyway she slowly began to get angry with me over time as I would bring it up every blue moon just to see if she gave it any more thought - we even watched some videos together on it.
We started sleeping in different rooms and she eventually got an abortion. Started going out, and eventually had an emotional affair with a guy that trained her.
I don’t know why all this happened to me. She told my family and I was just trying to sift through it together - and eventually turned everyone against me. It was a dark time for me. I didn’t think me suggesting Polgyny would lead to all this and blame myself.
Does anyone have any thought on this or word of encouragement? Is it weird to say I still desire Polgyny? Do you believe I was wrong in anyway? Open to correction.