u/Vivian2720

guys i decided to convert to theistic satanism about 2 and a half months ago. i read a few books and they just make me even more confused. i was raised by a fully muslim family and if they knew im a satanist i am practically disowed, not joking. how am i supposed to keep this a secret because i feel like they suspect something.. i dont know. i just want to know what i should do now. what books should i read and how do I pray? i heard from sources that there isnt anything as praying but from others that its okay to pray and this whole thing is just super confusing. what should I do? pls help!