u/Vry_Demure

I (26F) am new to the OA program and am finding it hard to hold myself accountable. Meeting are available to me online but after the first few, I couldn't take it seriously.

I have a food addiction and I know it's only going to get worse if I don't help myself.

Is there anyone out there willing to be a sponsor to me? I am a very spiritual person but I'm not Christian. I have nothing against whatever higher power helps guide you to a better life, I just want to be up front about that since I know faith is such a strong stepping stone of this program.

I (26F) have had an ongoing battle with compulsive eating since I was a kid. I am constantly going through bouts of fasting for days and losing weight just to come off the fast and gorge. Over the past two years I have lost and regained over 90 pounds. I am spiraling down a path I am worried I won't be able to get out of.

I am trying to start the OA program, but the only meetings available to me are online since I live in a rural area. I have gone to two virtual meetings but I just don't feel like I have accountability through a screen.

I need help. I would be open to any suggestions. I think I need someone to lean on and hold me accountable for taking care of myself. What do I do?