am i a bad daughter or is my mom in the wrong?
i’m 13 and my mom is 53. sometimes i wonder why i ever thought i hated her when she’s being nice but then other times i can’t even remember her good times.
during the day, she’s stressed. i get it. she’s busy with work and my brother has disabilities so she has a lot to deal with. i try to be extra nice during the day so she doesn’t get mad. at night she’s worse, because she’s tipsy. she doesn’t hit me or anything, she doesn’t even get mad when she’s tipsy. but she’s just really annoying during this tbh, and she doesn’t think before she speaks. i have to baby my mom when she’s tipsy. (ive talked to my mom about her drinking problem, she either says she’ll stop and never does or she yells at me for being in her business).
so basically what im saying is the bad moments with my mom outweigh the good. she and my dad both do this thing where they think every i say is attitude. and i guess it is sometimes. but i think they really blow it out of proportion, even when it’s only a little bit of attitude or none at all.
for example, as i write this my mom and my sister are at the vet because my dog was nonstop vomiting. my parents weren’t home at first because they were at a doctors appt with my brother, so me and my sister were really panicking. we were calling our parents and my mom told us to put my dog in the sink and run cold water over him. i said exactly this, “mom, i mean no disrespect, but i was on google earlier and it said that we shouldn’t do that.” my mom hung up immediately after i said that. she texted in the family gc that she was taking an uber home. (this is also a good time to mention i have emetphobia) so im freaking out and shaking throughout all of this because my dog throwing up was honestly really triggering me (he threw up like 5< times) so when he threw up in the sink i walked away for a moment to breathe. of course, my mom comes in right as i do this. she yells at me because i was supposed to be watching the dog. then once she gets him she’s yells at me for saying that he should go to the vet. then one more time for good meausre she yells at me before leaving about what i said over call, saying she’d “deal with me later“ and i was “getting to a point”.
stuff like this happens all the time. i’m home alone rn but im honestly scared for once she gets back. i know she won’t hit me or anything but i don’t want her to be mad.
i also know that im over dramatic. i have friends whose parents have abandoned them, throw stuff at them, and leave their houses in disarray. i know im lucky compared to them, but am i wrong to be sad? am i just giving too much attitude? anyway the texts we are exchanging in the family group chat seem better so maybe she’s not too mad.