Using alcohol to force myself to work,need help
So I’ve been camming for one year and last year I discovered that I can drink a shot or two to help me be bubbly on camera it worked so well for that time but recently I need more than I shot and to be sincere I hate the thought of drinking so that I can press start broadcast , I tried being sober and it didn’t work , on Friday I drank too much I ended my stream early then I didn’t cam till today , today, I went completely overboard. I drank way too much, only managed to stream for an hour, and blacked out on my couch for four hours. I just woke up with a horrific hangover, and my body is rejecting everything I can't even keep down water for hydration. My head is pounding, and I physically feel like absolute garbage.
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I really need advice on how to stream without drinking and be lively on camera , the other thing is I never drink outside of camming only when I’m getting ready to be on camera . I’m genuinely stuck guys How do I break this cycle when I have immediate financial and life pressures looming? I just really need some kind words or advice on how to get through the next few days.