I want to end it all, I am tired
I have severe contamination OCD, life just does not give me a break on top of it. All my friends suck, my girlfriend is just so problematic all the time, all i do is go to work and come home and she still starts fights with me and then even when i do exactly what she wants, she just creates another problem. I have no family at all, i have a decent job as a bridge operator I make 31 an hour rn but idk it just doesn’t feel like I am alive, existence is painful, when i am home i am constantly cleaning things, I just got my first apartment with my girlfriend the OCD has made the move rough, I try to see a doctor but the doctor in my area is only taking undocumented migrants at the moment and yeah i could just go on and on and on and idk i just don’t want to do it anymore i feel like these next few days are the end for me.