Crazy Story. Please read it / Give advice :/
Yesterday, I went to this restaurant with some family members and there was a Zoltar there. My 10 year old relative got a few of them and handed one to me saying "this one is for you". I didn't think much of it because my relative is too young/unaware to know anything about my personal life or my feelings. But, when I read the message inside, it perfectly explained a real and personal situation I have been in, which I have never told anyone about. The message inside was about how "I am missing someone who doesn't miss me back, and that I should spend my energy on my hobby." My heart sank as I read that, because I have been starting to include this person into my maladaptive daydreams and this person has taken up so much of my time lately. Especially, my time with a certain hobby that I really need to be working on. I have been feeling so much more drained because I miss this person and daydream about them. For the past 5 nights in a row I have had real dreams about this person. And depending on how we interacted in those real dreams, it would impact me positively, or negatively and leave me feeling even more hopeless, then causing me to daydream about them being kind to me/missing me too.
I had two options in this scenario.
- Tell myself that it literally was a stupid Zoltar and magic isn't real like that. So, I should continue to MD about this person because they could actually miss me back.
or 2. Realize that maybe it was God or an actual sign that I need to put my energy into the hobby I have been procrastinating on. However, I know that would mean changing my daydreams away from this person, which is uncomfortable. Also it means changing the idea in my mind to realize that this person doesn't still miss and care about me.
Both of these scenarios would take a mental toll on me and change how I live, but I don't know which one is more worth it.