Getting back on track
I'm not sure the easiest way to explain my situation. But basically I studied maths and physics at uni, went boxing 3 times a week and spent 12 hours a day studying. I'd always worked hard like that, my whole life. I had trauma in childhood which I think made me focus harder. But I also have autism, anxiety, depression and OCD.
In my second third year at uni I got into a relationship and it was toxic. They tried to change everything about me, blindsided me with lies and last year we broke up. That was 1 year after graduation. In that year I was working and planning to move out with him while he showed little Interest. I really left that relationship as a shell of myself.
Now I am unemployed, trying to heal and trying to find a way back. To someone that worked so hard towards their dreams and found passion in my work.
At the moment, I basically play PC games most of the day while I wait to see if I will get a place to study my masters. My OCD is worse than ever. I feel both exhausted with life and determined to find a way back.
Has anyone got any advice ? Is it discipline I need ? Or should I focus on my healing and mental health, I don't know anymore.