My father changed after Vipassana
My father finished his 2nd 9-10 day Vipassana retreat 2 days ago, and unlike the first one, he returned in a very different mental condition than he left. Meanwhile this is probably a part of the goal, the way he behaved the previous 2 days is really concerning and other relatives noticed it too. He left 1 day before the closure of the event and along the 9 days he admittedly faced his biggest fears and had constant panic attack in the meantime. After a few days he had some kind of visions about my brother passing in an accident and spend 2 more days without knowing whether it’s real or not. When he left the retreat he asked my brother to not get in a car that day and he was also saying that something might happen to him on the way back home and he doesn’t know if he makes home at all.
After talking with him, he said that he had godlike experiences and if he wanted to summarise the whole event’s learning is that god really exists.
In the past 48 hours it seems like he had some kind of episodes which are very concerning, saying that it feels like that he had died multiple times during the retreat and the day after and it is actually the part of the path to enlightenment. Meanwhile it doesn’t seem that he can be danger to anyone, it was really scary when he called me yesterday saying that we are going to have an amazing life and he wants to show this to all of us since he maintained a journal during the retreat. When he heard that I got really scared because of his tone he kind of turned it down an we have a proper talk after ai got some relief that he is not broken. He was already really into spiritually and finding his way in life, believing in some kind of central creator energy, but now he is constantly referring to god and how it is guiding him and always lets him know what to do. What is strange that after these kind of outburst he does act normal. What scared me most is that my aunt called me today that she has the same feelings and she is very scared and the way my father was acting in the previous 1-2 days is really disturbing. Today he got all over the place saying that he mist write a book immediately as this is his faith.
Overall I know the human mind is capable of really extreme things after such a hard time, and since a have never attended a retreat I’m writing this to see whether someone else had a similar case and whether I should start making some steps. I’m really desperate and I don’t know whether he is broken or not. I really don’t want him to go crazy - meanwhile he says that he feels better than ever, I am really afraid that these lind kind of outbursts won’t stop/get worse and eventually they will make him do something really stupid or dangerous.
Thank you if you have read it until the end and I really appreciate your insights!