32 [F4M] USA Midwest, I just want someone to make a home with
I was married before. It didn't work out for reasons that were understandable and we are on good terms now and I'm actually good friends with his new gf now believe it or not. My ex husband and I were never really in love but we were too young to recognize that and got married anyway which didn't last long. I don't miss him, but I miss the domesticity. I miss coming home from work and making a frozen pizza with him and eating snacks in bed while we watch a movie and then have sex. I miss having a partner. Since separating I've experienced being really in love but that guy can't handle a relationship and doesn't want to choose me. I stopped viewing him as an option. I don't want casual. I want to find my person so bad.
I never really managed to find a career. I struggle with a psychotic disorder that's set me back in life many times. A year and a half ago I lost my job, apartment, and car because of it and landed back in the mental ward and now I'm living back at home working part time in a slot parlor. I'm working on getting my driver's license and saving up for a car but it's gonna be a long time. I enjoy my job though and I love talking to my regulars there. But every day I daydream of my dream guy walking in there and sweeping me off my feet.
In my spare time I make art for fun visual and musical. I have over 100 original songs and I had my songs on Spotify before they got taken down because I couldn't pay the distro fee when I didn't have money for a long time. I'm 5'8" kinda fat, dark hair and eyes, half Filipino half Dutch and German. Have no kids and don't want them.
I'm looking for a guy who doesn't want kids, has no kids , is liberal politically, is creative or musical, someone who loves movies and music, must be aged 30-37 preferably in the USA.
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