u/Weird-Midnight9237

why is sexuality something that I run away from?, I mean whenevr I see smthn sexually provoking the first thought in my mind is to avoid it or run away from it, and im feeling so non sexual and completely abandoned by sexual health. I hardly masturbated 2 times in one year and I am proud of it to control my sexual urges and focus on my life but also I dont last long enough so start stop technique and training sessions require me to ejaculate. and this is because I was a gooner and an addict previously and I got off that ugly world and stepped into the real world but I dont know what to choose. whether to continue to be a celibate and a lazer focused man, or get back into the terriotory of erotica but train myself to last longer.