Need help
Hi everyone, please take a moment to read this because I really need some advice.
I’ve been in EMDR therapy since September 2025. From the very first real EMDR sessions, since I don’t have an actual traumatic memory connected to my main issue, we started working on what affects me the most: my constant inability to accept my body and the feeling that I’m ugly.
From those feelings, a scene started to emerge that resembles a possible childhood sexual abuse scenario. Since then, unfortunately, my therapist has become convinced that this really happened, and we keep working on that scene — or similar ones — almost forcefully. I feel stuck.
The problem is that when someone pushes me to imagine in a certain direction, of course I can imagine things, but it doesn’t feel like they truly come from me. I don’t recognize these memories as real, and honestly they feel impossible to me.
Recently I tried to tell my therapist this, but it feels like she doesn’t want to listen at all.
What I do recognize as partially true is a feeling of “wrong” or confusing sexuality, but not in the way she interprets it. If anything, I feel like it may come more from emotional neglect or from never having received the attention and affection I needed as a child.
Please help me: should I change therapist?
She tells me to trust the process. And honestly, I do feel like EMDR itself could help me — in some ways it already has, quite a lot actually — and I don’t want to stop therapy altogether.
But should I keep trusting her, or is it better to change therapists?