SituationshipTraumaDump
Um so i met this guy pretty randomly on insta and i texted first . We clicked on immediately and the next 20 days were the best in my life . He was my classmate ans on the first night of us talking he told he liked Ezza(name changed) a girl from our class . But likr withink a week i started liking him and confessed first(never doing it again ) . I had never had a bf or a male bsf before so everything was exciting . We were never really in a relaionshio yk . The nest 2 months were like a fairytale i used to text first , send him texts day and night . I was obsessed and that was my mistake i guess. Later my mom caught me and she was very angry as she is quite religious but she didnt rly say anything just guided me. Then our mid term result came and he spoke bullshit abt me to another guy btw like legit maa behn ki galiyan , i was def blind in love and thought he was JUsT mad as he didnt get good grades . Then he spoke shit abt me to one of his freind and confessed it to me himself . But i was like its ok dont do it again im embarassed of myself . Um then one day i posted a pic with my csn brother and he got offended which is undertsnable yk i shouldnt have done that but i apologised like atleast 560 times to be exact. Then he faked being w another gurl and that night i went to the hospital (yup😭😭). Then he spoke bullshit to his other freinds abt me . He became so cold and i was despertae like i used to apologise excessively everyday . He called me an idiot psychpath waitress pagal dumb anything u coudl think of and i dnt know how tf did i bardasht that . On his brithday he forced me to leave him and told me he would burn the gift i gave him . That was so heart breaking and btw i wrote him 1400 pages for his 14th birthday and he disregarded then quite brutually yet subtly. We talked on and off for two months until one random day i just blocked him. Um idk why i did that but i had to . i rly rly missed him in the following two months of no contact but i for once wnated him to reach out first . He texted seven days after my birthday and apologised for evrything . I was happy af but just as i thought everything was goin well he dropped another banger. He again told me abt ezza the gurl he initially liked and used to simp over her . I was so heartbroken man . He never really liked me iguess. its been 4 months of nocontact and we ended on a very random convo. I miss him sm gng not like i see a future w him but my heart still aches for him. Its his bday in five days should i text him? Plus tyyssmm for reaidng all this i rly needed to vent out