u/Wide-Awareness1495

I feel like paying rent for home if you’re living alone is waste of money. Instead buy a trailer for and start living in it. Instead bc canada is this legal?

A girl joined in our store and Her name is Emily mcloed. She was the cutest person i ever met in life. She was a fantastic women. We started having mutual feelings for each other. I was working on three jobs and a date was setup. Me being an ignorant person and stupid piece of shit messed up the date talking all kind of racist shit and using f**k word so constantly entire date without realizing that I am offending. I made her feel so bad and uncomfortable. Then I paid for the food. After that I have tried explaining her with texts but she didn’t reply. And I sent some more texts. She complained to my manager. I blocked her and never texted back. And kept my distance. After couple of days I cane to know that she quit the job. I feel like the worst person and I can’t stop thinking about her. She blocked me and this is my first ever official date with someone and she said it was hers too. Honestly I don’t believe it was her first date. But she was a book worm and very cute girl. After the first date she told me she wasn’t interested in me but I always knew she was interested and we were so well bonded in only so little time. I really thought she was the one. She told me she isn’t looking for long term although I mentioned so many times while we were talking to each other. I really miss her!! Only if god could give me her back. I would give everything.