Are We Just Samskaras of the Supreme Consciousness? My Thoughts After Vipassana
Veerabhadra being born from Shiva made me feel that he is nothing but a samskara given form — a manifested trait or force created from consciousness itself. And maybe many stories mentioned in our Itihaasas are symbolic representations of traits: how they are born, how they grow, and how they dissolve (evaporate). Even Daksha regenerating his daughters feels symbolic of traits continuously reproducing themselves within consciousness.
After Vipassana, I suddenly started feeling like we are all samskaras of the Supreme. I feel like people are just bodies with samskaras embodied within them. I see the same traits repeating in different people, and the way they use those traits is what makes them unique — that becomes their personality. And maybe an enlightened being is someone who knows how to observe and control all these traits consciously.
In Vipassana, we observe samskaras, and if we react to them, they multiply. But if we simply accept and observe them without reaction, they rise to the surface and dissolve. Similarly, I started feeling that this is how our body and consciousness work too. If we get attached to the traits of this body and mind, then we continue the cycle of rebirth. We keep multiplying ourselves through reproduction, and our traits also continue multiplying through generations.
Now I feel like I can understand the idea of Pitru Dosha differently. Maybe we are nothing but the unresolved traits and aversions carried through the consciousness of our ancestors. So in a way, I feel like I am my ancestor continuing in another body and how we are carrying all our pitru(family traits)
And if we fully accept the traits present within our consciousness, maybe they too can dissolve just like samskaras dissolve in Vipassana. Maybe that is what liberation means — dissolving back into the Supreme instead of multiplying again into another form, another loka, or another existence.
Our bodily samskaras need a calm consciousness without thoughts to become visible. Only then can we truly feel and eradicate them. Similarly, maybe the Supreme Consciousness also expresses itself through samskaras that choose their own paths of manifestation.
I also started thinking about neuroscience. Neuron connections become stronger whenever thoughts are repeatedly fed into them. One thought creates more neural pathways, and those pathways keep multiplying through repetition. Similarly, I feel like beings are also born because consciousness keeps feeding certain tendencies and attachments. In the brain, a wire is attached to the neuron. Here, a body is attached to consciousness.
After Vipassana, I suddenly have an intense urge to learn everything — spirituality, science, consciousness, the Vedas, the mind, existence, all of it. I feel like if consciousness continues or multiplies in some way, then filling it with wisdom may help it evolve rather than remain trapped in materialistic traits and attachments.
And now I strongly feel the urge to find a Guru — someone who can answer these questions and teach me the deeper meanings behind the Vedas, consciousness, samskaras, and existence itself.