Integration Issues - Soliciting Advice
I've played SS13 a decently long time. Long enough to watch myself change from one person to another, but regardless of myself, I've always felt a disconnect. Like I don't really belong. Like I can't get along with everyone the same way everyone else who hasn't been banned seems to be able to.
I've been banned from more or less every reputable server still alive today. I think to myself, "Well, this makes sense, this server has this target audience, and I'm not it." But, I'm in love with this game. I'm no good at coding, spriting, mapping, minning, or even hosting, but I'm a damn good player, and I'm passionate, too. So, here lies the problem; even if I'm under the impression that I'm doing nothing wrong, even if that impression is false, I find myself unable to play the game I love. And I don't know how to cope with this.
So, discounting any idea of 'appealing' anything, because all it does is delay the inevitable again in the best of times, or of making my own server but with 'blackjack and hookers', or turning to the 'dark side' (ERP servers), what are some of the ways that some of you reading this that are similar to what I describe cope? Are there any other games that you enjoy just as much, or are there different hobbies entirely that you've taken on? I'm willing to accept some ideas. I don't want to abandon the game that I love, even if it's just not for me.