I’m struggling with Christianity …
Hello. I (38F) and struggling with Christianity. I don’t know where else to go with my questions. I was raised Christian (southern US Baptist..) and my husband is Christian. He’s a devoted Christian who takes the Bible literally, says science is often bologna, there’s no big bag or evolution and mountains and stuff are a result of the flood. I just can’t with all that.
So… first off, females create and give life. Yet the ultimate creator is a man? That doesn’t make any sense.
Why would a man who can create humans and everything from dirt have impregnated a young child and forced her to give birth?
He knows everything so why does he keep making bad people?
There are so many bad things in the Bible- gays for example they aren’t evil. I don’t see anything wrong with a healthy love even same sex.
Women in the Bible have to be married to their rapist? What even is that. No.
God should be loving and kind but he’s jealous and mean and vengeful… and everyone is a terrible person so why try to be good.
And I don’t feel a person can do the most horrendous things their entire life to people, women, children, and then in their last breathe say oopsies and welcome God into their life and get into Heaven.
There are tons of religions who say their god is the right god. Their way is the right way. They can’t all be wrong except for this one.
Women can’t speak in church? We are great teachers. So we can’t teach bc of our gender, that God gave us? That makes no sense.
I’m sure there are more. But the more I question the more I can’t stay in it and pretend. I like the premise of treat people good. Don’t lie don’t cheat and don’t be a horrible person. But the purity culture, condemnation of women and holding men up on a pedestal, we were made equal apparently but then the Bible doesn’t treat women equal.
If I question anything I am told I will go to hell with all other non-believers. My husband shakes his head and tsk tsks me and says pities me. How is that good and why can’t my questions be answered in a healthy way , why can’t the believers even answer these questions.
Any answer I’ve gotten makes no sense and I’m told it’s bc his (Gods) ways are not my ways so I can not understand. You’re right I don’t understand child sacrifice or saying one race is forever condemned
Where do I even go from here.
Anyone??