I don’t think I’ll ever forgive my mother for giving me up as a baby
My mother gave me up for adoption when I was a baby and I don’t think I’ll ever forgive her for the decision she made.
I don’t know how someone can go through a whole pregnancy and give their baby to complete strangers and not give a fuck what happens to them. It’s selfish and heartless.
I don’t know if my life would have been better if she had kept me but I know I wouldn’t have the abandonment and trust issues that I have. I wouldn’t feel like it’s impossible for people to love me. I wouldn’t have a breakdown on Mother’s Day every year because my biological mother abandoned me and adoptive mother is an alcoholic.
Maybe I’ll get lucky and die from genetically predisposed that I had no clue I had because so other people decided I don’t have a right to know my family medical history.
I’m sick of pretending that I am not hurt by being abandoned.