I don't even know what to do
Hello! I'm a F(17), recently my mom has decided to go back and live with my father ( he lives abroad) with both of my 2 siblings other than me, I did suggest that I could visit them for summer vacations for a week or 2 but my mother said NO! That she doesn't have money for me. Now the thing since I'm gonna be living with my grandma,aunt and uncle I'm basically responsible for everything since my aunt and uncle aren't in the best state mentally and my grandmother being old, I'm gonna be one taking care of the house and every other responsibility.I don't know what to do anymore! I'm so goddam frustrated like my parents did this shit of leaving me in some country and going abroad when I was only 13 and now she wants to do it again!! For God sake man I won't even be able to leave the house this summer or hangout with my friends since I'm "responsible" for my grandma and her 2 grown ass kids..like I'm not even an adult yet and I'm supposed to act like an adult..
Sometimes my mother says she's gonna take me but sometimes she says no but she made it very clear last week that I'm not going and that I can manage on my own and personally idc anymore I just don't wanna ruin my life by sitting in the house all and looking after others
Am I not worthy of anything? Is my whole point of living js to scarifie my happiness for my mother? I'm so tired, I'm exhausted I can't do this anymore like why can't she just stay here for a month or less , why does she put a burden on me all the time and doesn't even hesitate to leave me in a whole ass different country. I don't even think I can make it to 18 I'm so tired this shitty life there is no point in living.
And also my father isn't fond of me either so I'm basically not my favorite child.