u/Wonderful_Age9308

I’m a Software Developer that started as a bootcamp graduate instead of University. I had been doing okay, getting jobs until now. I was laid off Feb 1st, and have been looking and sending a lot of applications to no avail. Not a lot of people are willing to hire a female developer (I look much younger than I am). I live in Ontario.

My question is, what happens if I can’t get a job?
I’m on antidepressants and trying to get my health card appointment Sept 15. After that I will visit the doctor, I’m suspecting bipolar and bpd.

I’m really truly concerned about the job situation. Very scared. It’s so frustrating to have actual skills and yet feel so powerless. I’m thinking after I get to visit the doctor, I’m gonna need to tell them to help me get disability. I’m so scared of my ei running out of- I have no more savings left. Will I end up in the street? I’m also European by citizenship although never lived there, and am considering leaving and going there since they should have help for me. But I don’t want to lose my apartment, it’s my place. I love Canada and all my friends are here.

Is there a good place to apply after 5+ yrs of software experience where I can work? Are there any people around with connections in tech?

I used to work as a frontend software engineer in Canada. I am proud of doing my work and can make any full stack application successfully. However, I’m a 28 yr old woman that looks 19 and with the current climate in tech, I got fired in February and I haven’t been able to get a job.
A few years back I had been to the psychiatrist for depression, I’m currently also taking another antidepressant and could probably say I have ptsd from current political events.
Unfortunately I have no family to care for me and I’m alone in the world.
I have been working hard to get a job, doing so many interviews even with multiple rounds but I’m starting to lose hope. I feel bad because I’m really capable but this job market is impossible and I’m afraid no one wants to give me another job with over 5 years of experience Programming.
I also have been offered ridiculous amounts - I ask for 80,000/yr usually and have been offered 55k over 2 times. That’s not a Software salary!

All of this has me pretty depressed, not eating and staying in bed all day. So I think I might be going to my psychiatrist soon, I gotta fix this before I run out of unemployment.