Paraprofessional and regret
I am a special education paraprofessional at a local school and I am regretting taking this job. I love the student I'm working with and you have the kids in the room, but I'm not getting along with the teacher and the teacher assistant sometimes. The teacher constantly belittles me and it's like you're not active enough in the classroom and you have to kids from going here and there and everywhere. I've worked for special education students before, but this is like a whole new territory. I am very active in the classroom and we have a couple of runners in the classroom so we have to be on guard for the doors and everything.
For context, I did sub in this classroom last school year for a few months. I am hating this job and I just finished the second week of school! I've been bit, kicked, punched, hit, spit on, and I have a bruise on my chins. I understand that working with special needs can be challenging, but I'm just so overstimulated and not loving this job at all. I feel like they tie me for how long I go to the bathroom and I'm not gone that long. I go to the front office bathroom or the nearest adult bathroom because we aren't allowed to obviously use the kid bathroom in the classroom. I had a migraine this morning and they were like well just push through it so you can show the kids the consistency. Mind you I get vestibular migraines. When I get those, I have to go home and rest and take some medicine. I just feel like I'm being belittled by the teacher and the teacher assistant. I don't want to feel like I'm getting timed how long I go to use the restroom. Meanwhile, the other teacher assistant can be gone for a little while longer, and the teacher never says anything. I love my principal and everything. I just don't like the people I'm working with and I'm trying my absolute best to do the very best that I can every day for this class. I feel like I'm constantly being told you have to do more. You have to do more when I'm trying to do my very best. A few of the substitutes that have come in our room and the different therapist that have come in our room to work with kids have all told me specifically that I'm doing a very good job. I'm sick of this classroom and I want out.