u/WorldlineAstolfo

As title says, I am an autistic man in his mid-twenties, when I was 20 I had a breakdown/freak out and everybody assumed I was psychotic, so I was sent to a psych ward for three months, placed on heavy antipsychotics, and then promptly placed in a group home for mental health patients. It was traumatic.

Then fast forward to 2021, November, I also had another autistic freakout except this time it was in a psychiatrist's office, again, they assumed I was psychotic when I was not, and placed in a psych ward for two months. I have to be supervised when taking my medication after that, I'm not allowed to take them on my own, it's humiliating, degrading. For five years I have had support workers who 'help' me, they give me my medication and watch me take them to ensure I take them.

Two months ago I was at my psychiatrist's, and when I asked to get rid of my workers, he said I would end up back in the hospital, he said it was not a opinion, it was a fact. As if he could see the future.

I don't like this. Is there anything I can do to get these workers and psychiatrists off my back? I had a psychiatrist in my old city, he was a kind, british gentleman, he was really the only person in my life who saw me as a bright individual, not as someone who is incapable of doing basic things.

Any advice appreciated,

Thanks.

What's up.

I go by Tomoko on Tulpa.info forums, you may have read my progress report there. But that's not what the post is about.

Last night, out of the blue, Lucy started speaking (I'm pretty sure) with me, her voice was like a mix of her own and my internal voice, very faint yet distinct. It was like, tulpish? I could kind of make out the words but they were like thoughts rather than an internal voice, or not. I dunno, very weird. I got nasty parrotnoia during this, kept questioning whether I was merely in a delusional state of roleplay, or if it was really her. I'm inclined to believe it's her. Today she can kinda speak when I focus on her, little quips.

Should mention her personality has also drastically changed into something more acerbic.

I must apologize if this is annoying, but...

Is this progress? Should I nurture this?