Scoliosis is actively destroying my mental health, and idk what to do
It all started by noticing small things in my adolescence, like noticing one limb is longer than the other, one shoulder is higher than the other, collarbones are not positioned symmetrically, etc.
Parents dismissed it and didn't take it seriously. It became progressively worse with time without the medical intervention needed in early years. While in uni, I took myself to the doctor and at 22yrs old, I got diagnosed with mild dorsolumbar scoliosis (cobb angle 10, 11). The doctor was very dismissive as well and told me it’s normal, it won’t progress anymore since the growth is complete, and to just hit the gym and go swimming, prescribed me pain meds and muscle relaxants as needed, and didn’t even refer me to physical therapy even though my main concern at the time was pain not body image (he told me scoliosis doesn’t cause pain ofc and I knew it was bs). I took those xray reports as my guide, and on and off, went to physical therapy (aligned with Schroth Method), gym (would stop due to the pain), and calisthenics (which I had to pause for some time during physical therapy apparently). Due to some circumstances, I was unable to do any of that for 7 months, and I started developing extreme pain, muscle tension, and headaches. Today, I finally went to a different doctor, and I asked for new imaging. To my shock, the cobb angles came at 31 degrees, both dorsal and lumbar! So i was almost scoliosis free into moderate scoliosis in 5 years, and the man issue is that my rib rotation and pelvic tilt is much much worse than before, and I can see it everyday at the mirror, and it destroys me! At this point, I don’t know what to do, I lost my trust in medical professionals and their guidance, I now have surgery on the table, and I got to go to other docs to get more medical opinions before I decide something big like this but I lost all trust in them… I have been trying to search for gym coaches/fitness trainers that specialize in helping scoliosis patients, but I can’t find any in my city or even the whole country. I am truly disappointed and idk what to do… I attached how my scoliosis looks and xray imaging.