
Memories pt. 2
"I have been eating, my ribs are still notable but i have visibly gained more weight and muscle. Its nice, really nice. I'm happy that I left The Purge King behind but..."
"I feel as if I also left all the connections i made behind too. Having a fresh start is great... but yet... I can't help but miss The Purge King, Cecilus, Adelheid, Sphinx, Al... I wish i could have had this fresh start with them too but I know im not good for them, and they arent good for me. Cecilus was too devoted to me to the point he was willing to die for me, I never asked him to die for me... thats not what I wanted... Adelheid is such a great gal, loving her was the greatest experience ive ever felt but also the worst, knowing I missed my chance. While I still love her, Im not delusional. I know its not happening. But I still can't help it. Sphinx was loyal to me too, but even i could tell she had ill intentions... Yet, her company was still comforting... Al, I was too cruel to him but how couldnt i be after what happened, yet long after it happened my wrath persisted... I would die for all of them... over and over... not sure if they would for me but that dosent matter to me, I love them and miss them all dearly."
"But I dont want to turn back now, I could, I truly could. But everyones in color now... I see everything in color, there are no shades of gray in my world of vibrancy... I look in the mirror and see my browns eyes, yellow scarf, pale skin and dark hair. But i still see the color of me, The only one whos a shade of gray..."