u/Wrong-Philosopher192

Usually, I don’t ever comment or post, but I do feel the need to tell you it’s gonna be good. Like, really good.

I had a horrible kratom addiction from 2017 to 2021 where I would buy 350 grams a month and gulp this awful liquid down as fast as possible. I spent so much money. I would take my last dose at around 10 p.m. and wake up at fucking 4:30 a.m. because the withdrawals started mid-sleep, take another dose (I didn’t ever measure it—just a big teaspoon, mix it with water and down it) — I probably wasted half the shit I was supposed to take.

Anyway, I then met my future wife. She was on my case really fucking fast, there was no way I was hiding the habit for long.

She really was understanding, and I told her I wanted to quit so bad.

I didn’t ever quit before, and I didn’t read up on anything. I just went from 100 to 0 overnight.

It was pure fucking hell. On a scale of things, it was better than having your leg blown off, but still, I had everything in the book and more. RLS, no sleep for days, you guys know the deal.

The fucking withdrawals lasted for 20 days. I thought it would be over in 5 days max, so I just hung on, but it wouldn’t end. It felt like this was gonna be my life now, a never-ending fucking withdrawal.

When I think back, I’m amazed I didn’t just fucking die on that couch in front of bottles of wine — I tried drinking because I couldn’t do it anymore. It didn’t help, like, at all. I then tried codeine, it worked for 5 fucking minutes before it was back to feeling like shit again.

Eventually, all of the misery was over. 20 days later.

I wasn’t feeling normal for 4 months after that, but my spirit was as high as ever because I fucking did it.

I could play guitar again — make music, have sex, and I didn’t need to gulp down this horrible liquid every 3 hours anymore. When I think about this green, gulpy liquid now, I almost puke. I can even still smell it.

I had a quick flirt / relapse again in 2024, I ordered some, put it in capsules, took ’em, and the moment I swallowed them I thought — it just isn’t worth it — not in a million years is it ever worth it to go through this horrible misery again, lose my wife, probably my business, and spend thousands of dollars on this bullshit.

So now I’m just a regular guy, with an amazing wife.

I can be out and about whenever and wherever I want without having to think about the next fucking dose — which, for me, is the biggest win, strangely enough.

I just thought I’d make this post to maybe help someone who really struggles with life after kratom. I didn’t think it would be this good. As I said, it took like 4–5 months to feel really normal again, but I pushed through.

And it’s worth it. My God, is it worth it.