u/Wrong_Cow_4003

I rarely fall in love with people. Why’d it have to be someone who doesn’t feel the same way that I do. I knew it was gonna be a rejection but I still confessed anyway and now it hurts so f*cking much. I can’t stop thinking about how things could’ve been different if I maybe had done things differently.

What hurts me even more is the fact that she said so much good things about me in response to my confession. Why couldn’t she just say something bad so at least I know why I got rejected. Now I’m left thinking no matter how much I work on myself I’m just never gonna be enough. I f*cking hate myself. If I’m always gonna be disliked anyways why do I even bother, no one’s ever gonna f*cking love me anyways. I know relying on external validation to self-improve is a sh*t move but I can’t change my mentality or how I’m wired. F*CK why am I born like this.

I literally feel like shit. I haven’t felt this sick in a long long time I hate it. I wanna k*ll myself I literally feel like k*lling myself. Someone please say something encouraging I really can’t handle this anymore. I need therapy I need help I need love I feel so lonely so sick and tired of always getting rejected I’m done.

Most people like to pick up languages like japanese, korean, spanish etc. but I’m thinking if there’re any place or anyone that teaches niche languages like tagalog in this country. I think it might be interesting to learn a language like that.

You can be the best person and people will still not like you. It’s normal.

You can be kind and people will still treat you badly. Even if you’ve never insulted anyone before, people will still be mean to you. Even if you try your best to reply people’s messages, they will still ghost you. Even if you help others, others might not help you.

Even so, keep being you. Keep being kind, be the fire even when others so readily extinguish you. Do not let what others do to you determine how you treat others. Somewhere out there, you will and probably already have made a difference. Who cares about the meanies.

Be strong in an unkind world. You got this.