I feel like I’m literally an NPC in this world. Has anyone else felt like this?
I am 23M and lately I have started feeling like I am literally an NPC in this world.
I don't have any ambition whatsoever. I am not good looking, not very smart, not good at sports, and I don't really have any hobby or passion either.
I have a job where there isn't too much pressure and it pays enough to pay my bills. And honestly, I am completely okay with that. I don't have some dream of becoming successful or having fame.
If someone offered me another job tomorrow which was more comfortable, paid more and had less pressure, I would probably leave my current job without thinking twice. I don't feel attached to any particular career or goal.
I also really like having the same routine every day. I get annoyed when something suddenly changes like suddenly having to go somewhere, plans changing, not getting a holiday I was expecting, etc.
The weird thing is, I don't hate my life either.
I have close friends and family whom I love and care about. I can enjoy spending time with them. I am not sitting alone thinking that everyone hates me or anything like that.
But sometimes I just wonder...
What exactly am I doing here?
I look at other people and some of them have something they genuinely care about. Someone is obsessed with football, someone loves gaming, someone wants to build a business, someone wants to travel the world, someone loves music, someone is passionate about their career, etc.
Even if they don't achieve anything from it, they seem to genuinely enjoy doing that thing.
I honestly envy that.
I don't know if it's actually okay or if I'm just wasting my life without realizing it.
Has anyone else felt like this in their 20s?
Did you eventually find something you genuinely cared about, or did you just accept that you're someone who prefers a simple and comfortable life?
I would genuinely like to hear from people who have been through something similar.