u/YearxZer0

I dumped my partner/FP over of a year and a half because they seemed distant and uninterested over the past few months, and it was destroying me. I kept thinking they were going to leave me. Ive been spiraling, SH, SI, substances, all became coping mechanisms ive always used(dbt out the window). I just kept hoping things with them would go back to the good times.

On the advice of the few people I trust, they pushed me to dump them (it took weeks for me to do it.) I left officially this weekend.

I thought it would stop the downward spiral. But I still have negative coping urges and actions, but now on top of that I feel E M P T Y... fml. Now I want them back. Feels like the cliche "damned if you do...." etc blah blah.

Thoughts? Support?