u/You__dontseeme

Hi, I ask for help to figure out if I am nonbinary or genderdoe.

Please note before reading, I am aware that labels are not a necessity, but I personally need them to feel better and not constantly question myself.

For years, I knew that I was not cisgender (AFAB), but I pushed it away and ignored it because I was more focused on my studies.

Recently, I focused on figuring out my gender

I had taken for granted the fact that I thought I felt comfortable being perceived and called a girl through the years, so I searched for gender identities that felt like me, that would include woman and non-men genders, and upon stumbling on genderdoe, I thought it fit the best out of all the genderfluid identities.

And, recently after labeling as such, I took it upon myself to try different things to look and feel more nonbinary because, in those moments, it was what I felt more comfortable as and settled it as the fluidity of genderfluid labels.

But after trying said things that make me "more" nonbinary, I realized that I felt more comfortable than I had in years.

After this realization, some more came over, and I realized that when I searched for identities the first time, as I said before, I took for granted my relationship to being seen as a woman. 

I believe that this feeling of being "okay" with it comes more from the way people (especially my family) pushed me into that box since I was young. And because when I was a child, I was used to dressing in masculine clothing, to the point of being referred to as a tomboy, I think I may have accepted the tomboy as the best option, but I realize now that I don't really enjoy being called a girl ?

Or at least I don't think so ?

I understand that this may seem like a dumb rant, but it's been bugging me for a while, and after years of pushing it away, it starts to weigh. I will take any advice possible to figure out myself.

Hi, I ask for help to figure out if I am nonbinary or genderdoe.

Please note before reading, I am aware that labels are not a necessity, but I personally need them to feel better and not constantly question myself.

For years, I knew that I was not cisgender (AFAB), but I pushed it away and ignored it because I was more focused on my studies.

Recently, I focused on figuring out my gender

I had taken for granted the fact that I thought I felt comfortable being perceived and called a girl through the years, so I searched for gender identities that felt like me, that would include woman and non-men genders, and upon stumbling on genderdoe, I thought it fit the best out of all the genderfluid identities.

And, recently after labeling as such, I took it upon myself to try different things to look and feel more nonbinary because, in those moments, it was what I felt more comfortable as and settled it as the fluidity of genderfluid labels.

But after trying said things that make me "more" nonbinary, I realized that I felt more comfortable than I had in years.

After this realization, some more came over, and I realized that when I searched for identities the first time, as I said before, I took for granted my relationship to being seen as a woman. 

I believe that this feeling of being "okay" with it comes more from the way people (especially my family) pushed me into that box since I was young. And because when I was a child, I was used to dressing in masculine clothing, to the point of being referred to as a tomboy, I think I may have accepted the tomboy as the best option, but I realize now that I don't really enjoy being called a girl ?

Or at least I don't think so ?

I understand that this may seem like a dumb rant, but it's been bugging me for a while, and after years of pushing it away, it starts to weigh. I will take any advice possible to figure out myself.